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Judgement Day

Had my dreaded driving test today.

Circuit was alright, don't think I made any mistakes. There was only a 'delay in moving' off in the beginning. I was going to move out of my space when this car passed by; I was really almost going to move out liao until I remembered what caused me to flunk the previous test: my hiong-ness. So I decided to just wait there like the timid rat that I guess all testers like test takers to be.

Everything went smoothly until I ran into this L-plate driver when I was on one of the big roads. That's where we're supposed to drive at around 70 km/h. But this person was like crawling. And remembering the good citizen I'm determined to portray in this test, I law-abidingly followed behind at the speed of about 40 km/h. The best thing is I got a three-hit combo on this attempt. I got points deducted for insufficient acceleration, speed too slow for the roads, and failure to overtake when necessary!

Great. But still, I'm happy enough that I passed. Just that my results slip looks so ugly.

EIGHTEEN POINTS.

Farewell

"Sent" my aunt off on Thursday. Had driving lesson before that. Took a day off.

Sheesh, the "band" at the ceremony were quite jia lat, playing poker and stuff before commencement. Even after it started, there was this man using his phone while playing the cymbal. And the trumpet guy was blowing it with one hand.

It was a traditional taoist ceremony by the way. So had the usual scattering of incense paper as a way of sending her off. It started off sounding really corny when I heard the loud-and-noisy version of "shi shang zhi you mama hao". Then as we started walking in circles around the coffin, gosh, i dunno what happened, but it felt damn damn downright heart-breaking.

People were starting to cry and cry. No one cried for the past few days. So I got kinda shocked. Then it got worse; even heartless me felt my eyes turning red. Damn sheesh. Luckily I hard-hearted enough. Managed to tahan. My jie couldn't take it and broke down. Cried like hell when they were closing the coffin.

Then proceeded to send her to the crematorium. Lotsa people started crying again when she got pushed into the er..furnace(?).

Anyway it was the first cremation I've ever been to. I think it's quite convenient and eco-friendly. Decided to opt for it when my turn comes.

This funeral set me thinking quite alot. I realized that this is the first funeral of someone fairly close to that I've attended. With much reluctance, I realize that more is to come. I don't know how I'm gonna react when I suddenly get news that my so-and-so has passed away. I refuse to mention names cos that's so unlucky haha.

Sigh I guess what must come must come.

I believe I made alot of people smile when I was born. I hope that I will make alot of people cry when I die =)

An Eternal Loss

My aunt passed away this morning.

Can't say that we're really close, but still, it always feels kinda sad when your relative passes away.

She's my second eldest aunt, so we always call her 'li gor'. She was one aunt who played with me quite alot when I was a little boy. I still remember that she always called me "bui bui". I hate it when she calls me that cos it sounds so obscene and stupid.

I also remember there was once this wedding dinner, I dunno whose, we attended when I was like, 8 or 9 years old maybe. I was folding this napkin into a bra and held it over my eyes. I think she thought it was meant to be a pair of specs and she laughed so hard. I was so embarrassed.

She's also always joyful and smiling. Her place is one place where I actually look forward to going during Chinese New Year. Cos I think she's very infectious with her smile. Makes people feel happy. I also remember that of all the aunts, she gives us the biggest ang bao. Ten bucks, I think.

And now she's dead.

People always say that a person is never truly dead; for in the heart one could live eternally. When one's not in a poetic mood, that sounds like complete bullshit.

Yes, I will remember her always, but she'll never really be around anymore. No one to call me "bui bui", no one to laugh at my bra-specs. And there's one less place to look forward to visiting on Chinese New Year.

Guess we'll all miss her.





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